Not sure where to begin, but I guess this is as good a place as any.

I am a mom, an engineer, an artist, a daughter, a friend, and a Christian.  One title I used to define myself by is now missing from the list. That is a conversation for a different post.

My life, up  to now, has been one of order and rules and following directions.  I have always striven to be as perfect as possible…at least what I thought looked perfect to everyone else.  In the process I forgot who I was and all I managed to do was wall myself off from everyone I care about.  Analysis Paralysis I believe it is called.  I analyze everything before committing to anything. And this usually ends up with me never doing anything because something just isn’t perfect.

This is a fundamental character flaw that has made me who I am today.  And now that I am starting to realize it I am working on changing my MO.  I usually miss out on all the fun stuff because I am too worried about missing all the fun stuff. Kinda counter productive.

This blog is my new outlet to get my thoughts and ramblings out.  I have always been able to think clearer if I can put my thoughts on paper.  Even if nobody ever reads them, just to write them out is cathartic.  So this blog was born.

The one true joy I do allow myself is my children… my heart… my everything. I love them more than life itself yet at times I can’t believe they are actually family. Like the pebble in your shoe, that turns out to be more precious than a diamond.